To hweehwee:
ure not extra, ok?
n pls dont go to VJ pls
we need u
u n fiona are much more closer i swear.
who hv been staying back to trn jnrs tgt, whn im off dng a proj or at a tuition replacement?
who hv been on the phone discussing the dateline fr the lecture bk, whn im off playing maple at night?
ure not extra, furthermore ure more closer to the patrol than i am.
like wht selina said, i was drifting away frm the patrol.
ure not? dont u utd?
who is the 1 passing down messages?
being in contact with fiona n me, with the patrol?
whn me n fiona are not in contact most of the tym eh?
also,
u n fiona are improving, more and more in guides so why gv up n go VJ?
dont u tink is a waste since u tried so hard and improved so much?
everybody will be disappointed u knw?
im alrdy a disappointment to selina n the patrol, u want to add more?
u knw wht,
ovidia once told me tht she tot u will be a PL nxt tym.
do u want to gv tht up?
u said ur future is in darkness,
why dont u try ur best and get it out of the darkness?
dont leave ok.
if u leave,
thr will only fiona to hold on the patrol
do u want it?
_________
and to selina,
im sorry ive let u down
im still neutral.
i dont hv any passion fr guides truely.
im sorry im such a disappointment, and such a let-down.
i dont rly knw i changed.
ms seow said tht too.
but i got tuck in more and more le blv me,
but whn it gets uncomfortable it just gets out.
i will try my best,
to go back to the last tym.
im sorry.
